DOWSING FOR LIGHT

I’m sitting here at my desk for what could very well be the first Friday of the first weekend for which I have no plans but to write. I’m trying to get all of my procrastination in tonight because I plan on catching up on some writing over the next two days. Intolerable Cruelty has already run its course on the television in the corner of the room and now Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind is on. Which, of course, started me thinking (something I try to avoid unless it’s been properly scheduled). And yes, I realize the subject line of this post references The Matrix. There is a reason for this. Imagine you’re going along your everyday life and you begin to realize, through observing certain “flaws” in reality, that the world in which you live is not what it seems to be? And let’s establish that you are not experiencing a distorted reality due to some brain malfunction. Maybe it’s all a dream or a brilliant ruse created by a higher intelligence (artifical or not). Not matter the source or reason, the reality you’re experiencing is only as real as your senses allow.

I understand that’s basically what life is to us anyway, but let’s not get too philosophical.

So this existence of yours is basically comfortable. The downs are worth the ups and knowing that mint chocolate chip ice cream isn’t really made of mints, chocolate, or ice cream doesn’t make it taste any less incredible. The feeling of your child’s arms hugging you tightly is just blips and zaps in whatever your brain really is still warms you from the inside out. And your sweetheart’s kiss still grows sweeter every day. But still you begin to see secrets slipping through the seams of the fabric of your reality.

Assuming all of that, would you still seek out what is real and what is not? If so, would it be to satisfy your curiosity or to uphold some self-induced integrity compelling you to seek the truth? Would you find the edge of the curtain and rip it wide open, even at the risk of never looking back?

Or would you just kick back and enjoy your life, ignoring those little signs and signals that life is something more, something that may be better, worse, or incomprehensible?

As for me, I think I’d sit back and enjoy this life, no matter the downs, and place my bets on the hope that we’re steadily lifting the curtain anyway and all will be revealed.